Friday, June 24, 2011

This is SOOO Hard

I am scheduled for bariatric sleeve surgery on July 14, 2011.

Yesterday I started my liquid diet that is to help shrink my liver and clear my colon.  The liver needs to be smaller so that I have a successful surgery.

I made it through yesterday, dealing with hunger.  Did not think about brining the sugar-free Jello.  Today is much harder.  I keep crying...I don't know why exactly other than I am hungry and forgot my jello after telling myself to bring it!!

I wish I had had enough leave to take off today, but I have to save all my leave for my surgery and to be off the week after.  I just need a few days to get a routine going with this.  I am good with routines.  I know I can do this...others have before me, so I can.  It is just hard today.

I have a meeting with a doctor at 1pm to discuss timecards with them and I look like hell.  I need to get it together...wish I would have brought some makeup darn it!!

I am not sharing this stuff on Facebook, but decided my blog was the most appropriate place to let it all out...thanks for letting me vent.  No, back to the regularly scheduled program...


  1. Oh dearheart--yup, it's hard but it WILL get different, easier even. Practice and support and some help in disciplining yourself, it'll happen for you.

    Let other folks support you--it's a process and a tough one initially. But you'll get into the routine/discipline--and it'll become your way of life.
    Easy does it.
    Developing new habits take practice and encouragement and friends along the way to remind you--you CAN!
    (you already ARE!)

    <-- rooting for you!!

  2. Be safe! I did not know what this surgery was and had to look it up, sounds scary. Are you sure you have exhausted all other options?

  3. You can do this!!! I know you can!! Good luck and I will be praying for you!! Hugs...

  4. Thanks everyone. And Barb, yes, I have. I kept saying I could do this without surgery, but I finally realized last year that I needed the help. I started this journey with my first nutrition class last December.