I decided to start writing morning pages today. I started them a bit late, but I finally started them. I learned something while writing them today. I am completely unsatisfied with my professional life. I guess I have known this for awhile, but today is the first time that I have put this into print. And now the whole world knows.
And the thing is, I don't know what I want. I think I know at times, but I am responsible for so much in our lives that I cannot necessarily follow that dream disregarding all other things. I have to continue the daily grind and work in time for the dream. So, over the next few weeks I hope to find a way to work that in and balance things more in my life and find some modicum of satisfaction.
I am an intelligent person that does not use her full potential and I realize that is a waste. I have to do something about that. Later this year I hope to go back to school, whether online or conventional, and maybe that too will help me figure out what it is I am looking for in my life.
I have watched a very dear friend, whom is more like a sister, grow into whom she really is and I am longing for the same. So, sit back and watch me grow...encourage me, because I need it...I am weak when it comes to making myself do the things I need to do...be hard on me...I need that too...